i went deep into the archives, there's a lot of things that i would love to share. i don't really know who to share it with. there's been a nice person who's been taking all my ruckus lately, and he makes me think maybe there's more people who want to hear the ruckus. not sure.

break all the rules and take my heart out, hold it in your hands like a ripe fruit
do nothing about it
i know you seemed to care about (?) i never should've let you sit by my side a space for you and i
my body was begging for something less like this you never would listen you never would listen to somebody other than your own damn mind (?) you always meant harm but i always saw light
i thought a person like you would keep me safe but you were (are) just another threat

a sorrowed howl for a day id forgive you for your pain
pay up for promises broken
made for a moment
too fragile for romance

never meant to break
cravings a careless taste
for all that’s below you
and all that’s above me
there’s no way to say it
without sparing safety

distant faces for every other misconception
i know i never learned what happens not deserved
you’d hope that God gives you his graces
am i still a fool for hoping
that one day you’d return what was taken

the sand likes me better
when the skin beneath my clothes is so much wetter
i’m still haunted by their wanting
entertainment made for lives with plans too boring

watching for water beneath me
i lay in your arms like a lamb to the slaughter
who would dare to give up brushed clean gloves?
i outgrew old sayings, swallowed by gourmet drinks
peachy and bright just like saints with their romanced lies